Failing sucks
Here at MIT and the Media Lab we are accustomed to success. So it really hurts when we rise to the challenge yet still fail.
Today we all received a rather dissatisfyingly written email that we think tells us that we didn’t place in the Prix. It’s worded so poorly that we can’t tell for sure, but that’s our impression. I checked the database to find that the invitations we had created for the Prix judges were never even redeemed.
The failure continues tonight as I struggle to complete this long overdue, horrible problem set. Several times now I’ve thought it was close, that I was nearing some easier downhill slide, only to realize that I was fooling myself. For the first time in years I’ve started to lose track of where I am in the program, what I’m doing and why.
It all starts to feel very arbitrary.