My 2006 came and went very fast. Thanks to everyone for checking in with me by reading this stuff. I’m not sure where it is going, but one of my resolutions is to have a total of 100 posts by February 5th, the date of my first posting in 2006.
Ocean Beach yesterday. It was beautiful.
Bonny Dune, down near Santa Cruz, also yesterday. Jenn and I took a drive down the coast.
When I am going home after being away for a while, I start wondering whether it will be very different, or whether I am very different. I compare there versus here: how the air will feel to breathe, the directions and colors of the sun, the faces and fashions and voices of the people. I start to question whether the character of the place has deviated from what I remember, or whether my memories have forked from the actuality of the place, or both.
Then, when I finally do return, the reality rushes into those memories and pours into all the gaps where I had the questions. The perceived wins out over the imagined and the remembered. I find I don’t have questions anymore, and I barely remember what they were. But I still have the uneasy, nagging restlessness. There was something I was supposed to do, or somewhere I was supposed to go, but I can’t remember what or where that was.
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